#RESTORED4

A problem shared, Is it truly half solved? One of those times after I escaped an horrible experience I thought to share it with one of my friends. I needed solace, and all I needed her to do was sit back, listen and perhaps tell me something comforting. I remember telling her not to share it with any other person, the next day, I got the exact opposite of what I told her; her mum responded to my greetings with such pity in her voice. "Good morning ma" and she was like "Good morning Esther, Sorry oo, I heard what happened to you, what really happened? How did it happen?" That is how my secret became public discussion, and that is how I stopped sharing my innermost concerns and troubles with anyone. I was so disappointed. I became so good with coverups; no matter the pain I was going through, you wouldn't know I was hurting, inside of me I knew I needed help but who would I trust? It was hard to be vulnerable again, I didn't want to go through a second hurt of having to see people make jest of my pain or spread it around like wild fire but more than that, I truly needed a confidant, I needed to heal. Should I tell you about trust? Will you care to listen? It seems like it is the least thing you want us to talk about after you had been hurt by that fellow you so trusted, but can I insist? #YouStillNeedToTrustSomeoneWithYourPain I tried bottling up everything that came to me; abuse, frustrations, pain, guilt, they were all stocked in and it was great burden for me. Keeping it all in wasn't also working, so I knew I had to released myself and #SeekHelpFromTheRightSource so I would be free and healed. Soon, I got a journal to write about the way I truly felt, then I learnt to tell God about my fears, worries, pains and all that was in my heart. From God's word I found solace, and I also got good counsel from the people HE brought into my life. Would you be surprised if I say I am 100% restored? I am healed, burden-free, graced and restored and I want that to be your sincere testimony. #SeekHelpFromTheRightSource #Restored #BreakingTheCodeOfSilence #IStandWithTheWholeTeenager