A BEAUTIFUL ME

Whilst growing up, one of the things I loved to do on weekend's  was modeling; I would just put on different clothes , walk close to our large wall mirror and admire myself.
You know that smile you put on your face when you are tying a fine gele or that confidence you have when you are walking around the room with a new high heel shoe. It was all part of the weekend fun.
I felt good standing in front of the mirror and looking into my eyes. Sometimes it was a moment of reflection for me, I would talk to myself, pay attention to my inner voice and long after the woman I was becoming.
I knew there was something about me, but I had to clear doubts, I had to be fearless, I had to live the life, yet, there were things that sought to rob me of the chance of living to the fullest, I will tell you about it.
You remember that in the previous post (LEARNING THROUGH SEASONS)  I shared with you some of the challenges I faced as a new intake in the boarding house, these experiences are important to me because in them God taught me lessons that have proven to be life jackets in the midst of life's turbulence.
Growing up into a teenager in a somewhat confused world where identities are misplaced, values are distorted and the truth is farfetched is not at all easy. It takes a stronger conviction to beat the turbulence.
It seemed like I also lost my identity in the growth process, soon, the  young girl who was once excited walking around the room, modeling and feeling good about herself was drained to the pit of inferiority and depression. I had lost count of my value, relevance, significance. Everything else was good, everyone was better, I couldn't just see mine. My sight had been blurred and I felt I had nothing of great value, I thought I was second class, like other people were better. I felt a strive; a need within me to cover up for 'the inadequacies'. I saw people I thought were smarter, more favoured, loved, cared for. I felt cheated, like I wasn't an option. And you see all these baggages I carried along, they all played out because even when I had people who believed in me, I didn't count on them. I listened to anyone and circumstances that downcasted me, that's because they were actually conforming with what was already inside of me and that's actually what the devil wanted. he  wanted me to believe his lies so he could do what he willed but God showed me mercy, He had a greater purpose, and so He rescued me from the devils pit of destruction.
I saw light and darkness and light feels far more better than darkness. God captured me by His mercies and I surrendered as He began to teach me great truth through His word. He said even while I was yet a sinner, He had forgone His throne and crown to  come for me. He had seen value in me. He didn't want me to rot in the cold arms of death and sin, in deception. He wanted me to taste and embrace light forever. I have found light: Christ. The bible says He is the Light of life (John 8:12). He tells me I am the salt of the earth, the light of the world. He tells me I am more than conqueror, a city set on a hill that cannot be hidden. He said it and yes! I believe it.
You see how  I got out of the weak hands of depression and inferiority, God's hand is stronger, He pulled me out into a new realm. So if you see me bouncing and looking beautiful, it is from the strength that I receive from my inside. Christ in me the hope of glory, the hope of beauty and strength. No more depression, no more inferiority, I am a city that is set on a hill.
You could still be in that old dark pit of depression and inferiority, you may have thought that your friends, poor grades, inabilities were responsible for your current state, but I tell you the real enemy, it is the devil, he wants to detain you just like he did to me, so he could slowly destroy you , he has stolen your joy, your confidence, your peace, it's his move towards destruction and you must never give in before he shoots his last shot. You see how people lose their lives today to suicide, it should never be.
If you are struggling with depression and inferiority. The word of God has better things for you, but you first need to surrender to Christ and accept Him as Lord of your life. Say a prayer of faith, "Lord I surrender to you, take over my life, my moments, and my days and give me the joy that comes only from you in Jesus name" Amen!
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**Much Love